Today was what felt like a turning point day. The struggle with food greatly decreased, and even better, the crazy exhausted feeling was way less. I was way more talkative and way less nervous.
I should note that I had some other struggles and I again didn’t complete my list of three thing to do (both of which were pretty devastating to my sense of accomplishment). But, they pale in comparison to finally having more energy.
The funny thing is that one of the reasons I didn’t get my three things done is because I became quite caught up in trying to figure out what the tiredness I was feeling actually was.
My issue was that I knew that I was getting enough sleep and good food. In fact I have been on a perfect routine, so there is no reason to feel so tired. However, I was tired, and truly tired at that!
So, my question was: if energy is simply an equation of how much potential energy you are feeding yourself to how much energy you are outputting, where is all my energy going?
I was going to write a blog called ‘Being Fake Tired’, but it is still real tired. I even took a two hour nap on Sunday!
In all my research, the main thing factor that I found that can sneakily steal your energy is stress. This actually led me on a long path of thought and research from which I concluded that stress is actually the evil that causes all dopamine disruption.
I think that this could also be responsible for my extra energy today because just knowing the enemy is a great cause for relaxation (and therefor, according to my new theory-more energy.
— I keep writing down new notes that I am thinking of as I write, so I feel like this journal is really disjointed. However, I am quite excited about the stress idea. It pertains to everything. One thing that I will have to prove, and that I believe, is that everyone is more stressed than they think. For example, I am not a person who would seem particularly stressed to most people, but my mind is always way too busy. I think this is the case for a lot of people. The stress system was made to deal with the big stresses of marriage troubles and job troubles. It is the secret stresses. The stresses most people don’t even know are happening that I think are the problem. Anyway, I will say a lot more about this through out the next few weeks I am sure–
I also had the idea today of dividing the challenge up into parts. There would be the preliminary part, which is so important I would call it part one. Then I would say the first six days as your body readjustments peak (on day 4) and then balance by day 6. Then we come to the stage which I will be entering tomorrow.
Part three: A no mercy approach to achieving goals
Tomorrow I will begin striving with intensity to achieve my goals. Having goals and not working towards them is one of the most stressful things I know of so this will work to my new theory well.
I should also start gaining some more natural dopamine to retrain my system (which by now should be wondering just exactly what I am doing!)
I set an exacting schedule for tomorrow, but I am excited to achieve it. Let’s see how it goes…