This routine has been by far my greatest achievement so far, and it is making me feel really good!
I worked for marginally longer than I did yesterday, and I didn’t take a nap! It helped that I got out of the house to run some errands during lunch, so I may have to do that a bit more.
I think it helps to that I am getting more into my project (writing my first ebook) and that the ebook is about this challenge. The hard part, as they always say, is getting started.
I am also doing very well with doing social things. Tonight I went to my first small town Meetup. It was pool and darts so I was nervous about going and not having any drinks, but it went really smoothly.
I was thinking on my way home that that may have been one of the first times I ever hung out with a group of strangers and not had a drink! The good news is that it was a lot easier than I expected.
In fact, now that I think about it, I think it may have been easier than with drinks. Normally you have the cigarettes and drinks to kind of hide behind, but you have to wait for them to kick in.
Since I used to drink a lot it takes too much before it kicks in. I also think that you have lower expectations of how sociable you will be, so you try harder and are more impressed with the results. It could have been that I just got lucky and they were really nice people too though.
I was nervous before I went, but just as I got there I got a wave of peace, which was a God send. I was thinking on the way there that I really need a good dopamine kick to be properly sociable, otherwise my mind just isn’t there and it can be a real struggle to maintain conversation.
Somehow I think I got that kick from the wave of peace. I really think that I need to do some more research on the relationship between stress and dopamine, I am almost sure there is a deep connection.
On the negative side, I still am way off for how much work I am getting done. I just get too tire around mid day. I am improving though, which I guess I should be happy with.
I think I am going to write down my three goals for tomorrow here, so it forces me to be accountable.
- Get up before 730 and immediately eat breakfast, stretch and do breathing exercises.
- Do 6 hours of work on my book
- Begin life guarding swimming lessons