That being said, it is a real struggle to survive these days. I have had a minor headache for the better part of the last three days, have been unbelievably tired, and to make matters worse, I haven’t been sleeping very well.
I have been sleeping though, which is a massive improvement over the last time I did the dopamine fast, but the weirdest sleeps I’ve ever had.
Last night it felt like my body was asleep but my mind was fully awake and constantly wanted to get up. It was almost surreal. I could even hear myself making the sounds I normally make when I am sleeping.
I also normally wake up as the sun comes up, especially if I go to bed at a decent time, but the last two night I woke up to an alarm and could hardly figure out what was going on.
I do think that after Sunday I will definitely be more energetic (it currently feels like my fingers are heavy trying to type this). Number one, my body should be starting to normalize, and number two my mind should be beginning to accept that this is really happening.
The important thing about my mind accepting this is that I won’t have to decide not to have a glass of juice every time I open the fridge and not to grab a candy every time I pass the kitchen table.
I read somewhere that every decision you make takes a certain amount of energy and it is proven that by the end of the day you make poorer decisions. I think I am currently wasting quite a bit of energy by having to say no to myself every time.
This is also one of the main benefits of doing the fast because after 40 days the inclination/habit of grabbing a candy is gone so you don’t have to fight it which doesnt make you tired.
I also noticed a bit of depression the last two days, more yesterday, and I am not sure how I will fare there. I do think that if I can manage to keep accomplishing things like writing blog posts, going to social activities, and exercise I should be able to keep my mood focused and not slip into depression.
All this remains to be seen on Monday… Until then there is a Sunday between us, and I am looking forward to that. I am going to play squash, go swimming, and possibly go skiing if it isn’t too cold. I also have a brand new Herman Hesse book that I got for Christmas so it should be a pretty nice day off!