I am getting flashes. It seems like things are coming together in my mind way better than they did before.
Anyone has hung out with me over the last 10 years can attest to the difference between drunk me and sober me.
Obviously everyone is different when they are drinking, but I am a bit different. I do enjoy dancing, I have lost my temper, and I ocassionally do stupid stuff, but mostly I start talking. A lot.
The difference between sober me and drunk me is fluency. When I am sober, I am sure people can physically see my brain working to come up with sentences. It can be just a little weird or outright socially awkward, but things just don’t come out easily.
When I am drunk however, it is quite another story. I can hardly talk fast enough to deal with all the thoughts I am trying to weave together at the same time. The only idea I don’t understand is the concept of ‘a loss for words’.
That is one of the reasons I like the idea of writing. It gives me time to form thoughts in a coherent and sober way. I didn’t realize, however, that the brain fog of staring at a blank page could be even worse.
Over the past ten days, I have been saying I am not getting any work done. I am sure this is becasue of the lack of ability to focus. This makes sitting down infront of the computer ultra painful.
The good thing is that I am starting to get sparks of things coming together. I wasn’t supposed to work today, but I thought that reading a book about addictions is still reading a book so I sneaked it by.
While I was reading I couldn’t believe how many blog ideas I had. My hope is large that I will be able to get some writing done!
3 thing to do list
1.Finish Dopamine section of book
2. Run for 15 minutes
3. Do morning stretches and breathing